And I Walk Alone

Alone

To quote Green Day:

“I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don’t know where it goes
But it’s home to me and I walk alone”

Not long ago I failed at a significant relationship. My problem has been and continues to be: falling in love with an idea.

Nobody plays this life with marked cards, sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Letting go isn’t something you always want to do, and sometimes you grasp and flail and try to find some piece of what was there, but it’s gone.

We cannot repair something that is meant to be broken. Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away. Letting go means getting rid of certain memories so we can make room for other memories to take their place.

This is my journey through heartbreak and the emotional road to healing. I’m stumbling a little but still walking away. Without the guarantees, that definitive clairvoyance, it’s most reasonable to take a step forward. Move on. Progress. Closing cycles. Shutting doors. Ending chapters whatever name we give it.

So for now, I do what I always do … put on a smile, pretend I’m okay… and I walk alone.

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31 Comments

  1. falling in love with an idea,put on a smile, pretend I’m okay… and I walk alone.
    yeah pretty much like me. move on is never an easy step. but somehow we’re going to be okay,if we’re not, im pretty sure that we dont need to walk alone, we just need wait for the destiny to give us a good company.
    and for the record,
    im falling in love with your posts.

    • It is nice to know someone is, not only reading my posts, but also liking what they read – thank you for your comment.
      Moving on isn’t easy but it is doable, one day at a time. Destiny…Fate… is there such thing? Perhaps serendipity will come into play… I really don’t believe I’m destined to walk alone forever.
      I heard a song on my way to work this morning; since you and I are in the same situation I’ll dedicate this catchy song to us and all those who currently walk alone: Michael Bublé – “Haven’t Met You Yet”.

  2. HUUGGSS to you.

    • Thanks! A hug can make my day… better.

  3. Though you feel alone you’re alone with half the world.

    • I often feel that way.

  4. Nothing is Prewritten and
    nothing can b Rewritten..
    so live the best and leave the worst
    – unknown author

    hey, ur blog is lovable.
    will come around here frequently 🙂
    n chears to u !!

  5. Ever thought about sharing your story? there’s a bunch out there who might listen 🙂

    • I never considered it actually. I started this blog to help me deal with the pain in my heart and I find it has helped a great deal. Over the next several days I will try to put my story into words. I may have to write a Part 1 and Part 2.

  6. I was feeling down now feeling sad. My sympathies….

    • Sadness… something we all feel at times. Hope the feeling doesn’t last long… for either of us.

  7. Well actually I kind of recovered, but your writings are so powerful, they rub slat to my old wounds. I too hope they don’t for you too.

  8. Well actually I kind of recovered, but your writings are so powerful, they rub salt to my old wounds. I too hope they don’t for you too.

  9. Hay grabe, thats life we just have to deal with it ! its really hard to forget the person when you see him everyday and the people around you cannot move on with your situation. Even if im ok they keep on asking ” kumusta ka na? ok ka lang ba?” and when i tell im ok they will make face. i really like your blog. hope i have one!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    • I am thankful I don’t have to see “him” everyday but he does live in my neighbourhood. My family and friends are supportive but keep telling me to get on with my life… it’s easier said than done sometimes.
      Thanks for the comment and I’m glad you are enjoying my blog.

  10. This is a beautiful page. Love the photograph, too.

    • Thank you ツ
      I feel the photo portrays a sense of being alone; you can almost feel the despondency just by looking at it.

  11. I like your posts 🙂
    it’s like words of inspiration to get up and do your thing and be happy no matter what 🙂

    • Thank you for your uplifting comments. I appreciate the feedback.

  12. love your posts….
    i guess thats life….
    you just have to smile…
    pretend ur okay…..
    easier to do than to explain to everybody why your sad and feeling down….

    • Thanks for your comments.
      Putting on that smile everyday, especially when you don’t feel like smiling, is difficult but necessary. Eventually it changes from a fake smile to a real one.

  13. i had loved it…
    i feel so..much alike…

    • I think what I have gone through in the past year is something everyone has gone through at some point in time.

  14. me 2 dealing wid dat, but u have to cope up…….coz at d end its ur life!!!!!

    • You are right – we must learn to cope and to move on. Better days ahead.

  15. for a moment i thought it was me writing it. but got to admit, if at all i had written the feelings wouldn’t have been as good as you have put in.
    good one!!!

    • Thank you so much for your kind words.

  16. Is actually the best

  17. I so feel like this right now. Does your story end happy?

    • My story does end happily. I met someone and have been married for almost 5 years. 🙂


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